Mother-daughter

BMC class got me curious into a confusing phase of my life: being an embryo. So I have asked my mother to write to me everything she remembers from her pregnancy.
So at the moment I am conducting a research regarding relationship between my mother and myself. - to be explored.

Responsability

Katye opened up a possible discussion on responsibility. She also said that this word derives from 'response' and that has a lot to do with my movement. I would like to research more about it.

Body Mind Centering [24th January]

We had a very interesting reading for today that is also related with my dissertation topic. Today was a mixture of moving, discussion, group tasks and deep reflection. I enjoyed this format. 

At some point we shared opinions about Cecilia's workshop. We were asked to find the energy spot in our bodies and to associate it with a colour. (I had no pencils) While lying on the floor the only part moving was my chest-thanks to breathing; I got confused thinking my chest is the key. A few seconds later it was so obvious! Mt thought were SCREAMING!! It was obvious that the centre of my energy for that particular day (and therefore for my last few weeks- see 'Thought' post) is my skull or my brain. 

While working in partners I realized how difficult is to just listen. Shut up and listen to my partner's experience without me wanting to add, or approve, or argue. I find my lie very agitated and busy and the curious thing is that my body still asks for more physical activity, is never satisfied with a class or two a day or with 8 hours of work. I get home and I do feel tired but my body is still bagging for more jumping, thinking, analysing. I find it very hard to shut my body and mind down to quietness. Hellen Poynor was talking about the need of our bodies to be on the floor and listen to itself and the space. 'Always find a few minutes in your day an just go to the 'home position' where you can just be still and quiet' ( The Walk of Life- Anna Halprin Movement Ritual). So then why my body wants the other way round? Cecilia's session really brought up a lot of discussion and self reflection regarding this stupid need of myself.

Different people brought up different reflections: expectations, habits, choosing to hear, initiating movement from a part of the body, individuality, intimate, separating the thought and talking, uniqueness. Also there was a discussion around dance and therapy- not very interested at the moment.

Body Mind Centering [17th Jan]

Book recommendation: Amazing bodies moving by Beverly Stokes

During this class I got into thinking where yeld, push and reach offer me support in my free movement

What do I want to achieve this term?

• find a way of grounding myself more
• learning how to listen deeply to what is available and present to me
• better balance between different layers of practice - philosophical thinking - anatomy- questioning 

From this class I took away a particular type of being engaged to the world around me. How can my organs and tissues support my body?

Thought

During the technique class on Tuesday, I got a very powerful feedback from John.
He encouraged me to believe in my movement and really 'go for it'. It was exactly what I needed that morning I guess just because I am going through a very stressful period of my life.
I tend to loose my confidence and my self esteem is very low at the moment. I am not happy with myself in every area of my life. I judge myself, I want more from myself, I insult myself, I bring myself down.
Another thing that I appreciate about Andrea's class is the somatic approach to teaching a set phrase. Finding head-to-tail connections, finding navel radiation and therefore applying BMC principles to a technique class allows me to experience a full range of movement, connect my body with my thinking, find more internal space, find support from my organs and body systems, use breathing.
Open up a continuous journey in my imagination while executing a set material, finding new curiosities within.
It is a captivating approach.

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                  Turn my back

                           simply ignore what is there to be witnessed

                 choose not to acknowledge

                            let go

                 a lot of holding within this letting go still

                 look down 

                          find a pathway

                   so then I look back 

                          and see the hight-

               it's my pattern.

              Close my eyes for a second 

                    and just feel the breeze of the Danube on my face

                           intake

                breath out...

            On my way.

During the Monday morning class (13th January 2014) I got into thinking about inhabiting the silence.

The silence of the space
The scilence of the others
Her voice
Space calms me down
Scilence of my own being -  a very loud scilence
White scilence
I found a version of scilence while reaching out into the space rather than while focusing on my inner. How do I see my dancing? Is it shouting out loud? Or is it just a quiet activity ? Or maybe it is just whispering.

'Walk 25' work in progress

Walk 25

By Oana Rotariu

This experiential work is investigating the ephemeral aspect of the walk itself alongside a variety of journeys I have taken within this research.

‘Walk 25’ is inspired by artists such as Hilary Kneale, Hamish Fulton, Richard Long, Joseph Beuys and student artist and dear friend Fiona Jackson.

During the process I have explored frustrations, thoughts and themes that have emerged from the repetitive action of walking, both similar and different routes every day.

I have also changed my mind not to care so much about the destination of this work and simply enjoy the journey.

‘The only journey is the one within.’

      Rainer Maria Rilke