Interview Fiona

After our work presentation, Fiona and I had lots of discussions about our emotional journey into the big sheet of paper. This portraits helped us to become closer and to have a strong friendship, but the most intensive part of the rolling was when we created our hears inside of our universe and then we exchanged them!
I think she is a wonderful person and this is the beginning of a long and strong friendship!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=syamr0ofg8k

IPP Presentation

That picture...

This picture...is like my  shadow..I even can say it harasses me...this woman is wearing a white material, she looks so pure, but so sad ... The idea of feminism can be a part of my IPP presentation...

How quick things change!!!

I started the research for IPP by having into my hands some objects from my grandparent's old house...what memories come into my mind when I see those objects? How can I make them alive? Well this special picture is my grand-grandmother....so we have in common so many patterns, habits and things...But does the age when she lived influence me?...or maybe I can be HER!...

Just a few words...

I had my own rehearsal today and some words just came into my mind while practicing...

SPECIAL                         DEEP                                  INTERESTING                 ENIGMATIC
                 POWER                      SILENCE                     EMOTIONS                      PURE            ORIGINAL            HONEST         SIMPLE             WHITE          AMAZING

I noticed I still have in my posture and blood the ballroom patterns! I started to move and to add my arms position...this mixture might be a good idea..I'll go further!

Dance Exchange Workshop

Yesterday I took part form Polly's CI workshop in Birmingham...It was a very good session and I met very nice women!
We started this class by releasing our tensions: the back of the neck, tissues of the skull, shoulders, arms, fingers, making more space into the ribcage releasing the legs and bringing into our attention the breath...let the breath travel in all corners of our body and then start to move...soft and easy!
 I enjoyed the idea of different types of introducing yourself to someone...you can say "hello" or you can just touch someone! We started moving with our eyes closed, by allowing the other person to touch our moving parts of the body, to follow the movement, and then we changed roles. Then we played with the idea of giving weight...there are so many interesting ways of doing this...I feel so comfortable when I let someone to support my weight...
I found myself tensed at the beginning of the class and after I was relaxed and happy...
Reflections... I found myself following and repeating my partner's movement, just like in real life...when you live with someone, you take a part of his habits, when you dance with someone, you take a part of his energy and patterns...

Movement Studies- Andrea B

We came back to the floor sequence, and now my body knows it very well, so I can focus on my head to tail connection and spine. I'n not so flexible today I think it is because of my "full" week-end...
Jumps: -alignment; foot work, travel, pelvis in, breathing;

Reflections after the session...
Today dancing was a therapy for me...I could let go all my "black" thoughts and to think about my body movement. At the beginning the emotional side affected my practice (I was stiff, tensed, I couldn't focus), but after a while the practice affected my emotional side! Now I'm feeling relaxed and full of energy! Dancing helped me to leave behind all negative thoughts and emotions, so I can continue the rest of the day more happy and in an active way! I even improved my breathing and I find myself easier now...

Photography Exhibition

Last Tuesday we visited the Warwick Art Center and we saw a very modern photography exhibition, called "Twenty-Nine Pictures", by the artist Hannah Starkey.
Here you can admire some of her pictures!

I noticed the shadows and reflections, lights and different sources o light(the moon, the lamp, the river, the sun);

-mixture of reality and fiction;

-human relationships;

-mirrors, windows, water... glasses, floor, closet, TV, desk( anything can make a reflection!)

Seeing this reflections made me ask myself how do I see myself as woman in society, at uni, at work, at home, or in clubs! But how do the others see you as woman, part of this world?

Some pictures made me think about the relationship: mother-daughter!

After a discussion with the artist, we found out that in this work she used her own language,she had different interest field into the time when she was in college. Her work is as well a "collection of documents that have a visual language. During this discussion I understood that the "creator" (photographer, choreographer, actor, writer) is not responsible for what the people take from their work, or the message that people understand.

One important theme of this exhibition is the WOMAN:

-individual;

-groups;

-different ages;

-ambiguity;

-possibility of narrative;

-how women are used by media;

-as woman, formulate your own language and apply it to the world;

-life cycle;

-what means being a woman;

-internal and external of an image;

This exhibition gave me ideas for my body story, I can even take some pictures ti myself in different situations, while working to this project, and talk about the dance reflections into myself!!!

IPP Presentation

We had to think about some ideas of a possible performance, and we had as well a discussion about it with our tutor, Katye.
The most representative work that we have done until now during IPP sessions is the portraits work. This helped me to look deep into myself and find different sides of me that I didn't know that exist!
After reading the hand-outs from IPP I start asking myself some questions. First I start researching who I was before this huge change came into my life....what this change bring in my life?
-place(country, home, room);
-language- expressing;
-food, water, juice, fluids;
-values, memories;
-lifestyle, friends, music;
- culture, books, DVDs; etc.....
What kind of influences happened before I start building up my personality, education and who I am?
Working with Fiona made me discover a new friendship; we even created our "hearts" inside our intimate universe and during the whole process we passed trough...
The movie "Avatar" is as well related to this work because I feel that now I'm living in parallel in this new world and sometimes I go back to where I come from. It's interesting to notice how changed is my point of view now and how I look at people that are an important part of my past...
This work made me reflect a lot about myself and even I start writing to myself...It is related to my Body Story also!
The discussion with Katye gave me some ideas: -memory of places where I come from (the beautiful landscapes of the village where my grandparents used to live and the house of my childhood, the animals around us, the forest, the fresh mountain-air, flowers, colors, interesting stories, sounds, alive nature, river, smells...)
Another idea is sending a series of letter to myself, to start looking to different artist that work with this idea and I'm planing to visit that amazing village in April.
The word "intervention"....-who made interventions in my life? and why? Sometimes some people, but sometimes it's just the "destiny"...things just happen!
I found a strong motivation and interest about cultural phenomena!
The idea- experience-expression...what is the source of my performance?
I need to find my boundary...how flexible can be my membrane? I'm afraid not to be broken at some point...maybe it's already broken...

Water

It is Saturday afternoon and I just watch a very interesting film (documentary), that made me ask some questions...
The film talks about water, the most common substance on Earth. Water is with us in every moment of out lives, but where does it come from? and who brings it? why? As this movie says, "only water itself knows the answers...".  In Bible, water is considered as a concept, related with life! Many scientists had studied water's composition, as molecule and they decided we know almost nothing about water.
With modern technology, people discovered that water has memory and it contains different types of information.
The brain is made of 85% water !!! The scientist affirm that the water we introduce in our body can affect our brain and decisions that we take,even the character! Water is the "key" of  information exchanging in the world and it is as well the way that the environment can be controlled.
The words that we use intensely and thoughts that we have can be imprinted into water. There are stories that talk about people who were able to do miracles just because of their profound spiritual knowledge, and by using holly water, that has amazing qualities! Scientists say that the whole system is a state of instability, so the power of "thought" is strong enough to make all universe change! Whatever we do, it turns back to ourselves, not as punishment, but as result! And every word we say and every thought we have separates from us and became a part of global information environment! So this defines a human as a source of information, that makes the universe constantly changing! But water as well is considered as a source of life just because of her capacity of self-purifying: it evaporates, it condenses, it rains, it freezes and it melts, but is maintains the main structure: the program for life!
How the world was created? Everything begins in water and in water everything comes to an end!
Every single word is a drop of water and any thought is a source of information! This is the idea that made me raise some questions about humanity and individual!
What are the relations between humans and nature? How does this relation can influence our daily lives? How do people react to water? Why is water source of our lives?
This film make me reflect about myself and abut my connection to the Universe and it made me take a great decision : to have FAITH!!! and then the Universe is going to respond back...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OnbZN54IZNE

What do you think abut this?

Can you imagine a water dance? If not...just watch this video!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tI6S5CS-6JI

SKELETON

Just some images about our skeleton and spine! It's interesting to observe a human's body structure! 

Sometimes I am surprised by the way I can move the spine and by the feeling of finding a lot of space between vertebrae.In every session we work a lot with the idea of "body architecture" and we are asked to close the eyes and just scan our body: skeleton, muscles, tissues, skin...and to imagine the imprint that the body would let on sand...very beautiful image!

Impro [27.01.2011] - Polly

Warm up- individually- 5 min.(stretching, running, relaxing, roll down)- relaxing music.
Bring the attention to the bones, one movement follows the next, and the next, and the next (bones of arms, shoulders, neck, shoulder blades)- bones fold and unfold...
Finding surprising ways to move perhaps, maybe those tissues around the bones soft somehow; moving from the structure-skeleton; follow where the movement tales you; duets between the bones of the skull and foot, or arms and legs, find new duets! become curious! allow to your attention to move to a new duet! the movement takes you somewhere in the space, on th floor or off the floor;

{ I'm sitting here, at the edges of the dance studio...observing the other dance students! Even if my whole body is in pain, I feel like dancing, like exploring some new movement, maybe some new duets! }

The feeling of stillness...they go to one side of the room, staying in their bones, skeleton, architecture.

• sitting, rolling, stretching, alignment, simple movement---> crossing the floor by expressing the simplicity of the structure, moving by unexpected ways, just keeping it simple!
• work in pairs---> crossing the floor( play with the architecture of the body and space between partners); being curious, how does it feel?

[Free writing: I AM.....Oana, bored, sick, happy, in love, ME, a dancer ands actress, I am in Coventry, I am a body, fluid, dangerous, free, beautiful, white, natural, 19, away, writing, skinny, sometimes alone, but also a big family...many families, I am celebrating myself everyday, I am a girl or a woman? I am following my body voice, originality, sensitivity! confused, scared...in the dance studio.]

I observed how energy changes during this session while receiving information and while practicing!

 

Body Story Reflections

I'm just reading some hand-outs from Katye. It is about physical fitness and emotional side of every dancer! "Dancers are in fact, among the supreme round athletes in our society".

• Body Composition;
• Flexibility- a joint's ability to move freely;
• Balance- yoga, pilates;
• Endurance- the ability to use muscles for a long time of period without being tired;
• Speed- running, jogging;
• Power and strenght- cardiovascular fitness refers to the ability of heart, lungs and organs to consume, transport and utilize oxygen (jogging, cycling, swimming, aerobics).

The use of emotional well-being to move your life forward in positive directions!

The emotional balance helps us to discover and be aware of our heart's desires, taking positive actions and making changes in our life. Stress can be a source of damaging our boy and spirit and can generate illness. We can prevent this by sleeping and resting more, yoga practices, having a good and healthy diet, not smoking and not drinking alcohol. 

One of issues of emotional well-being can be the lack of self confidence. In this situation we need to talk to someone about this, because a shared problem is a half-solved one. We need to be open to all new good experience in life and all we need is trying to keep positive everyday.

This ideas are related to my body story, because sometimes I just can't let my home problems out of studio, and SRT classes helped me let them go and just living the momentum. 

An other important thing for my body story is the discussion with Joana abut my lack of self confidence when I have to do things that I never did, like theater games and improvisation. I think one of the sources of this lack is the fact that it takes a while to get use to this new language , people and environment! I think after that discussion I opened up myself and I can feel the difference now! 

What do you think about it?

So, thank you, Joana!

Other factors that are related to this topics:

1. Self-control
2. Social issues(friends, family, relationships, etc...)
3. Life events
4. Coping strategies

For example during reading week I was home and I needed to relax somehow and to move as well. So I decided to take a walk in Botanic Park of my home city with my big brother, Vlad and my little dog, Dolly.

I could feel the fresh air in all by body-heart, skin, lungs, nose- and I felt like all thought are living my head. I think that happened because it was such a pleasure to be there with my brother and dog, so we start expressing ourselves: jumping, running, laughing...so natural and so fun!!!

Sometimes animals can help you let go your problems and reduce stress levels.

I can say, from all of my heart that this little walk made an even stronger connection between my brother and I , and made me realize how important is he in my life! Even if in past we had "brother- fights", now I understand how much I appreciate him and I'm being aware of love that I feel for him!!!

SAGE - What do I take from it?

Obviously, I can't sleep now, even if it's the midnight!!!I keep thinking about the presentation from IPP...
So what do I take from today session, when we read some fragments from "The SAGE Handbook of Performance Practice"? I put down just the first ideas that came into my mind when I read it, that can be considered as "interventions" into my work and process.

• Performance is not about "good" or "bad"; observing a process;
• Open up endless questions, even when I cook, or have a shower, or sleep...
• The word "interventions"- who made interventions in my life?- sometimes people around me, sometimes just the "destiny" ... things just happen! with no reason or explanation!
• Finding motivation and interest in cultural phenomena;
• The idea: experience-expression => source of my performance, but my experience of changing as well...
• Finding my boundary! How flexible can be my "membrane"? I'm afraid not to be broken at some point...maybe it's already broken?!
• PERFORMATIVITY- the first thing that came in my mind: = making routine that offer me a basic practice, that can prepare me for performing...always being ready to experience new ideas and creating movement...being ready mentally and spiritually as well;
• Interpretations of identity;
• Questions:- start researching who I was before this changing came into my life!- what this change brings in my life?- what kind of influences happened when I started building up my personality, education and who I am! Portraits helped me to raise these questions about myself! => working with Fiona- new relationship.
• Changing place(country, home), friends, language, food, values, meanings, symbols!
• Relations to somatic studies , Body Story! 

Skinner Releasing Technique - Image

The "spongy" idea gave me the feeling of releasing all muscles and tissues : feet, tights, shoulders, arms, pelvis, hips...-> free movement.

I was focused on my breathing rhythm.

I was able to let go all my problems and outside thoughts ... and then I felt myself very easy and free.

Find a place to be...

Find a place to be; it may be somewhere that you are familiar with, or somewhere that is new to you, or somewhere that you are drawn to for a reason you cannot explain. Let your mind to go blank, let your thoughts float away like a cloud passing in the sky. Listen to the sound you can hear, write them down Pay you attention to things you can see and make some notes about this. Begin to notice how you feel, write or draw it down.

It is a totally new place for me! With new faces and sounds; crisps;
I'm in front of a music studio because I need to find new things in my life!
                            guitar             feelings                   tears                  words          Valentine Day
                                                             Tuesday

The first sound I can hear is the sound of my "inside voice".Guitar music! man voice, breathing, aaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

• the sound of my pen on the paper;
• different instruments, violent, funny, rhythm, beat, laugh, talent, ~~~~~~
• steps...harder and much stronger, it goes deep inside; it stops...it starts again, WHY? ...life-cycle;
• variations;
• hop hop hop hop, feet, adidas, nike, taratarrr atatataratata ratatara...

It gives me power to go over my problems, pure, natural, perfect sound, heart, love, art; Daaaaaaaa

- The longest one! second!

-Smiling, purity, inside, open, forgive and forget...slow...sad :( :( :( what's next?...curious, scared, suspense, voices, influence, again, boring, lalalala

-> after just a few comments and sounds! Steps, stress, annoying

Working with Objects and Memory

My daily life is strong related to different objects, that offer me beautiful memories from my past, or even bad experiences that happened some time ago.
When Lilly asked us to bring some objects that remind us of something special I chose this two things: a picture with a landscape from Spain and my boyfriend's blouse.

Here you can find the first things that came into my mind when I start observing the blouse:

• strong connection and feelings;
• I always smile when I see it;
• when I can't sleep I hug it very strong, sometimes I find myself talking to the blouse;
• specific smell;
• large and comfortable;
• it has 2 sides;
• it is a part of him...now it is a part of US!

Free writing after spending a few minutes with my object

I found new way to put the blouse on me...I tried to show different parts of my body by using the blouse.

It's smell gives me a relaxing feeling.

I expressed my memories -> I was angry (am tarat bluza...a strange noies came out of it...parca striga...it seems to be alive!!! nooo...I's surely alive, because it's a part of us)

What a soft material!!! It smells lovely!

->I felt happy to have this object around me, it protects me, I feel so secure now! 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aNLwMeoWaXI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H8KXnk59ewM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mDGv4-m_3yw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NdmCfRjyPGk

Reflections after the session

His blouse knows everything about us, all our secrets, mysteries, spirits, even tears (happy tears, or tears of sadness)...our own Universe where we can be strong just if we are together...I don't exist without him, he doesn't exist without me! -> energy, influence, calm, safety, love. [vreau acasa, vreau sa fiu alaturi de el....offf, imi lipsesti enorm!! Ma poti auzi oare? Sunt aici... ]

Rehearsal [ 4.02.2011] IPP

This rehearsal made us discover new interpretations of our work and helped me to see what a strong connection I have with Fiona!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b9RJ-GNlUic

•  rolling into a big sheet of paper allowed us to create an intimate space, our bodies were very closed one to the other;
• bringing sides of our personalities together;
• going through a process together;
• our movement depends on each other (if I go one way, she need also to come in my direction => if I make a choice, I need to take the responsibility for the other also);
• this is the process of exploration of the soul, and at the end of it we share our feelings from our hearts.

Thoughts and Feelings...

It is 12:44 AM and I can't sleep; I don't know if I should write this thoughts in my journal and blog, but they are an important part of the process that I'm going through.
 What do I celebrate? The fact that I am a very sensitive human being! Another part of my process is my relationship with the man I love, he makes me laugh, or cry, or dance; he opened new beautiful sides of me! Anytime we have a "fight" I feel like i'm going out of myself and then I need to move, to dance and to let go everything, to go as far as I can go, to fly away, to discover...
I need also to look very deep into my heart and all I can see is him...

                    Me, a thought...a smile
                    Passion, missing you, desire
                    Exist, dream...

All these words come from you...why? who are you?...and who do you make me???
You make me who I am!
I think this reflections are related to my studio practice, because all these feelings give me energy to overcome my own limits and to express myself in different ways!

Studio Work

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8LLa4kB8_1M

When I practice this exercise I feel like flying! I can't see my mistakes!

But now, I can observe myself :

• feet work-articulate;
• softness in the chest;
• arms relaxed and free;
• keep the hips in the same line (pelvis falls down trough hills);
• EAT THE SPACE!!!!!;
• be as  low as possible ( don't jump high);
• Go as far as you can;

  Feedback

I can see me arms going up and down while I'm jumping and I need to take care of my spine alignment !! 

What do you think about it????

Studio Practice Routine

Today we repeated also our studio practice routine and we tried to think about the feedback that Natalie gave us during classes:

• continuous and fluid movement;
• softness in the chest;
• head leading;
• moments of pressing [ head goes to tail];
• moments of extension [ stretch the spine];
• moments of balance: make sure that the ribcage in soft and down and the pelvis falls trough the hills;
• don't forget to breath!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FoV8SgRwFyg

What a beautiful sequence! As more as we practice it, more we can focus on things that Natalie told us.
What do I take from this class?

• freedom when I dance and jump;
• softness;
• foot work;
• the feeling of discovering someone else and work together - Amber was my partner and I really enjoyed working with her! She is a great girl! Thank you, Amber:)

Rehearsal [ 3.02.2011]

This rehearsal changed a lot of ideas and our presentation looks very different then yesterday!

Starting by personal scores and sequences we tried to find moments of connection => improvisation.
We cover our bodies with the movement portraits and then we try to let the audience see just a few parts of our bodies. [wake up]

Then we will find some ways to get out of it => start a new process of developing ourselves - opening up our senses.

As you can see, our movement portraits have different places in the studio ; we both come from different cultures , with different types of education => different directions: -; \.

The other two portraits are placed closed together because of our strong relationship, but still separated because we want to show that every individual is unique...but can be influenced by people around.

We go out of our individual universe and try to open up to new experiences!

- improvisation [suspension across the space];

Coming in contact with someone else's portrait represents starting a relationship with a human being.

-explore the idea of playing with different parts of the "body" and try to find the reactions:

 [shoulders, thighs, heart]

Tomorrow we want to try to roll together in the same sheet of paper! I am very excited and curious how this experience will be!